February Two

I have decided that for a week, I am going to see if I can avoid taking part in any of the idiocy that has been going on within my group of friends at school lately. And by lately, I mean the last two years.

I am going to see if I can go for a week (and hopefully much, much longer) without laughing at, smiling at or contributing to what has for a while, been a poor excuse for conversation. It used to be funny, but now it's just digusting and perverted and immature and unintelligent and ridiculous. Anything that ever comes out of anyone's mouth anymore is either a swearword or a sex joke. I sick and tired of it. Serious conversation isn't even remotely possible anymore. Lately, I've just been angry almost all the time and when they asked me why, I can't try to actually explain because they think I'm kidding around and just twist it some more and throw in some extra sexual humor because they're just hilarious.

Wow, I sound like I absolutely despise my friends, which isn't true. During the very, very, extremely small intervals of time that they are not being idiots, they're awesome. I love them to death.

I started praying like crazy last night, just because I felt like I needed to, about pretty much everything and I definitely need to start praying a lot more, and this was the most important thing. (Holy run-on sentence!) I know I'm not perfect, I join in with all the stupidity all the time. And I can't change how I am or how anyone is by myself, so I'm praying that God will help me out and that somehow in the process of myself being changed, that will start to rub off on my friends.

I'm going to start out with one week, and see what happens from there.

/endrareseriouspostbyvicky.